I know you are shocked and amazed right now...you did not have to wait a month before I wrote an update. So since you already know what is up with my life I will get right into the new info.
So this last Friday was a very interesting day for me. I have been in a class where we are studying Spiritual Practices and Tradition of the Christian church. So we have looked at St Patrick, St Francis, and many others. One thing that has been common among all the people that we have looked at so far has been they take long periods of silence to pray and hear from God. So we were going to do the same!
So on Friday we went to Mater Dolarosa which is a monastery in the next town over. We arrived at 9am, and knew that it would be a long day! We were told that this was going to be a silent retreat, and we could only talk if we felt we had too. We were given some basic instructions of where things on the ground were and then we started. The monastery had some things set up to help people pray through some things, and also just lovely grounds to enjoy nature.
I started praying and walking through their Stations for the Cross. I took my time trying to hear from God, and was feeling silence. I started to feel frustrated. Why had I come out there if I was not going to hear anything. Then the next thing that happened made me even more frustrated. I started to feel extremely weak. I hit a point that I did not even think I could stand. I kept praying and asking why God was doing this.
I finally got sat down in the grass. Then the word WEAKNESS kept coming to my head. I kinda hate that word. I never like feeling weak. I know that everyone is not a big fan, but it is something that I will avoid at all cost. I feel like I have to be the strong one in most situations(even though I am not). I hate feeling like I don't have the answers to questions.
So I started to pray, and looking into the Word about what the Lord said about weakness. I was sure that I was going to find that weakness was bad, and that I should do everything to get rid of it. Instead I found the opposite. I found so many verses that talked about weakness as a way to show the Lord to the world. It was this mind blowing thing that this whole time I had been fighting against weakness and now the Lord was saying it is OK to be weak. So now I am having to let go of my desire to always be strong. Once I started praying and asking for the Lord's help I felt fine again, and in fact walked around for most of the rest of the day.
This has been a great week, and I am glad that the Lord had such a great message for me! Thanks for reading and caring for me!
So this last Friday was a very interesting day for me. I have been in a class where we are studying Spiritual Practices and Tradition of the Christian church. So we have looked at St Patrick, St Francis, and many others. One thing that has been common among all the people that we have looked at so far has been they take long periods of silence to pray and hear from God. So we were going to do the same!
So on Friday we went to Mater Dolarosa which is a monastery in the next town over. We arrived at 9am, and knew that it would be a long day! We were told that this was going to be a silent retreat, and we could only talk if we felt we had too. We were given some basic instructions of where things on the ground were and then we started. The monastery had some things set up to help people pray through some things, and also just lovely grounds to enjoy nature.
I started praying and walking through their Stations for the Cross. I took my time trying to hear from God, and was feeling silence. I started to feel frustrated. Why had I come out there if I was not going to hear anything. Then the next thing that happened made me even more frustrated. I started to feel extremely weak. I hit a point that I did not even think I could stand. I kept praying and asking why God was doing this.
I finally got sat down in the grass. Then the word WEAKNESS kept coming to my head. I kinda hate that word. I never like feeling weak. I know that everyone is not a big fan, but it is something that I will avoid at all cost. I feel like I have to be the strong one in most situations(even though I am not). I hate feeling like I don't have the answers to questions.
So I started to pray, and looking into the Word about what the Lord said about weakness. I was sure that I was going to find that weakness was bad, and that I should do everything to get rid of it. Instead I found the opposite. I found so many verses that talked about weakness as a way to show the Lord to the world. It was this mind blowing thing that this whole time I had been fighting against weakness and now the Lord was saying it is OK to be weak. So now I am having to let go of my desire to always be strong. Once I started praying and asking for the Lord's help I felt fine again, and in fact walked around for most of the rest of the day.
This has been a great week, and I am glad that the Lord had such a great message for me! Thanks for reading and caring for me!
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