So lately life has been a total mix of fun and stress. I felt like I was going crazy, but was told by other that I am completely normal! I was feeling really good, and thought that I was completely on top of things. Then one day it hit how I was really behind. So I was rushing around trying to catch up. After that of course everything that came up just made me more stressed. I had 2 paper due, a group project, tons of reading, and auditions this week alone. I have felt that I was sooo disconnected with people and life in general. I just want everything to be normal. I thankfully was given an extension on one of the papers so I am feeling a little less stressed. I am also still trying to find work, but that is just not happening.
So that it does not sound like I am a Debbie Downer I also want to share what awesome things have happened these past few weeks. With money I have been stressing that I have not had a job. I had not shared it will tons of people here in California. I had just realized the other day that I scheduled auditions on the same day that I was suppose to be babysitting for a school event. I was mad that I was not going to get that money. As I walked back to my house I saw some thing sitting on my front porch. When I got up to my door there was a box full of groceries. I just got so excited that someone had been so wonderful to give me some food. Then I open my door and I find a card. I thought that it was just going to be a card saying who left it. Instead it was a card with money inside. I have no idea who gave it or where it came from but that person blessed me soooo much. Then I had been hired forever ago to work as a substitute teacher for a support group here on campus. I had never been called in, but I have now been called in twice now. Also there is a family that I have been babysitting for that wants me to keep doing it for another 3 weeks. I know that I have been so worried about money, but I should have remembered that the Lord has me.
On the fun front, I have gotten to spend lots of time with some wonderful people here. The other day we went to the beach, and just enjoyed each others conversations. We had a chance to encourage, and to be encouraged.
Well that is life right now, and I am just waiting to see what happens in the next few weeks. I know that things may not happen just how I wanted them to ie get a job, but I am going to keep reminding myself that my plans never work.
So that it does not sound like I am a Debbie Downer I also want to share what awesome things have happened these past few weeks. With money I have been stressing that I have not had a job. I had not shared it will tons of people here in California. I had just realized the other day that I scheduled auditions on the same day that I was suppose to be babysitting for a school event. I was mad that I was not going to get that money. As I walked back to my house I saw some thing sitting on my front porch. When I got up to my door there was a box full of groceries. I just got so excited that someone had been so wonderful to give me some food. Then I open my door and I find a card. I thought that it was just going to be a card saying who left it. Instead it was a card with money inside. I have no idea who gave it or where it came from but that person blessed me soooo much. Then I had been hired forever ago to work as a substitute teacher for a support group here on campus. I had never been called in, but I have now been called in twice now. Also there is a family that I have been babysitting for that wants me to keep doing it for another 3 weeks. I know that I have been so worried about money, but I should have remembered that the Lord has me.
On the fun front, I have gotten to spend lots of time with some wonderful people here. The other day we went to the beach, and just enjoyed each others conversations. We had a chance to encourage, and to be encouraged.
Well that is life right now, and I am just waiting to see what happens in the next few weeks. I know that things may not happen just how I wanted them to ie get a job, but I am going to keep reminding myself that my plans never work.
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